NOTHING

NOTHING

(I’m kind of excited about this post.)

I don’t do everything right.
It’s true. And God isn’t shocked. At all. Neither is He disappointed. At all. And never was.

I read an awesome book once “Reading Moses, Seeing Jesus” (truly amazing book) The authors point out that in the beginning God gave one commandment to perfect people who knew Him personally. Our best case scenario, and we fell. Then, just one book later, in Exodus, He gave us ten commandments. Of course, if we couldn’t keep one, ten was not even a question.

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DREAM

DREAM

A week ago I posted about desperation. It was very real. I wasn’t just feeling inadequate, I was overwhelmed by the realization that God has a vast mountain range of purpose for my life (all our lives), and even the peeks I can identify by name I seem to have no capacity to climb.

I had just spent a week in the San Juan mountains and it took nine hours of driving just to get through them. They just kept coming. I know it was a prophetic picture of promised lands. It didn’t help that Elton and I were listening to The Dream Giver on the way to, and the Prayer of Jabez on the way back. (Both by Bruce Wilkinson) They rocked my world again. “Lord, expand my territory!”

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YES

YES

A year ago today we moved. Moving isn’t really that big of deal to a lot of people, but it was to me. The list of why is too long to recount, but mostly its the people I miss. I said yes because I love Elton more. He has put his own desires on hold countless times for me. This was my chance to do the same…and He was following God. Walking in Obedience. I was at the kitchen sink when he asked, “Will you move to Texas?” I said, “Yes”. And a month later, we did.

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CRACK

CRACK

There are lots of ways we get to hear from God. So many countless opportunities He takes to communicate with us. One such way is a word that specifically “builds, strengthens and comforts” from a man or woman of God with a prophetic anointing.

Prophetic words that are spoken over someone else, can be highlighted to us by the Spirit of God, signifying that they are also meant for us. Just like the Bible, written to the original recipients, but also to us! The millions of believers the Holy Spirit reveals It’s truths to.

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MONUMENT

MONUMENT

“What do I do with the past?” Have you ever wondered? I have. There is so very much there.

The past is broken into sections in my mind; my childhood, young-adulthood, marriage, children, jobs, churches. “Oh! That was when we lived at the blue house.” “That was when we were best friends with those people.” “Those were the days.”

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DESPERATION

DESPERATION

I love this word. to me, it means “I feel an overwhelming sense of what I can’t do and don’t know”. Right now it’s driving me to my knees, pulling a cry from my soul “Oh, God. Help Me.” This desperation comes when the need is immense, the vision vast, the task tremendous.

Immense, vast and tremendous can only come from God. I don’t have it in me to think it up.

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DIFFERENT

DIFFERENT

“This is crazy. I don’t know how I got into this mess, but I’m never doing this again!”

“Do  you need to take a break, mom?” Destiny stuck her head out the door with a concerned expression.

It was kind of laughable, really. but not. This Oregon girl was ankle deep in my first Texas garden…standing on bricks that were sinking in the mud. A week ago I started preparing this soil, thinking it would be a breeze. But it hasn’t been.

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REAL

REAL

“That was NOTHING like I thought it would be” My son Elty and an armload of snow gear came crashing through the front door of our house. Elty and his best friend Cody were back from their very first snowboarding adventure. They were probably 10, so a while ago!

He was soaked to the bone, exhausted and smiling from ear to ear. His face was red, his eyes glistening.  They had conquered the mountain and lived to tell the tale.

It was exhilarating. But still, not what they expected. Read more

TEST

TEST

Four months into my cancer treatment I had a PET scan.  It is like a lot of the scans you can get these days. They put you on your back with your arms above your head. You glide slowly in and out of a tube accompanied by a whirling sound while a laser takes your picture. Something like that anyway. At the beginning, a voice tells you to breathe normally.

Breathe normally?. How about just breathe. I forgot what normal was. I’m fighting cancer and my heart keeps stopping.

Before I went into the test, I forgot to ask a very important question. This was a serious oversight on my part and had tremendous bearing on my peace of mind.

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